whoa

It’s been awhile. Super hard for me to believe that it’s April already.

Life has been crazy, but when is it not? Between school trips, teachers dumping projects on us, and AP exams, I’m ready to take a month-long nap. Hibernation is sounding really awesome right about now.

School seems rather pointless at the moment, espcially in my non-AP classes, which, ironically, are the ones I need to graduate. After the AP Calculus exam (which I’m trying not to stress about), school will be so pointless for me.

Graduation seems far away at times, but I know it’s all too close. I’m ready to graduate, and then I’m not. I’ve been going to the same school for almost thirteen years; it’ll be really interesting to see what happens when I’m dropped into a totally new environment with completely new people.

My friends seem to think I’ll hide away in my room; that’s most likely not gonna happen, especially because now I’m determined to prove them wrong. Apparently, I’m scared of boys, and all I do is study. I am a homebody – I can’t disagree with that one – but the boy-fright I can argue with. I haven’t really had the chance to meet new boys in years, and just because I’m not the type to randomly flirt with strangers doesn’t mean I have a fear of the male sex. Obviously, I’ve let my friends get to me. But I know that there’s usually truth in teasing, and I’m pretty sure at least two of my friends are being more than truthful.

It’s okay, though. I’m not that worried. Maybe.

Gah. I hate that I’ve let them make me doubt myself. I made friends with them quite nicely; who’s to say I won’t just as easily make new friends? And as for boys, that is yet to be determined. Being a little shy and boyfriend-less for eighteen years isn’t a crime in my book…

~ by Emily on April 25, 2009.